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      My name is Meghan and I'm a newly single, divorced mom of two teen boys. Back on November of 2023, I unfortunately broke my back (8-9 vertebrae, along with a slipped and herniated disc). The terrible injuries I suffered were the result of having a minimum 6 seizures. This all happened the first weekend I had moved into my new apartment. I was all alone, beyond stressed, exhausted and overwhelmed. No one knows just how long I was unconscious. I was lucky and grateful to be found.
      I was admitted in the hospital for a week following my accident. I was in a seizure like coma, so I don’t remember much from the accident or the hospital stay. The entire situation was so devastating to my life and the life I had been working so hard to build for my boys.
      During my hospitalization, I was fired illegally from my job, a job that I loved and never planned on leaving for quite some time. I still have not been able to find any work after being fired. I didn’t even know I was “fired” until 3 weeks after leaving the hospital. The reason stated was that I had quit my job. An outright lie. Because of this accident, functionally and physically, I will never be the same person again. I lost my mobility in that week. It makes working even harder. 

      I have had no income or support system here to help the boys and I for more than a year. It’s honestly getting incredibly scary having to think about what will/might happen if I cant figure out some type of income. I have to be strong for myself, but especially for my kids. They need me. I’m originally from Buffalo, NY (#BillsMafia) and hope to move home soon. My situation would be different if I were home. I don't get the extra needed help from my ex. I don't get out or see anyone due to my injuries. I can only depend on myself and with my severe anxiety it’s not easy. I will never give up.
       I decided to write it all down and share it all because the past several years have been so traumatizing. No one would ever believe me on how bad it truly has been. I want to be open, which is extremely difficult for me because I don’t share or open up about my personal life to anyone. I don’t feel like I’m getting any better. I hide all the real truths and secrets deep inside me, protecting others from facing their own consequences. Carrying the burden of consequences on myself, knowing that even if I did nothing wrong, if I hold those responsible for their wrongdoings and terrible behaviors/ actions that I would be held responsible for ruining my children’s future. They could lose their future scholarships, their healthcare, their ability to participate in the sports that they enjoy today, and the ability to get whatever they want and need on demand daily. I can’t provide that for them. If I do the right thing then my children would pay the price. It’s completely unfair for them and myself. It’s mentally exhausting, but mostly keeping all this buried inside me is preventing me from healing. I need to release or let go of the secrets from the past and hopefully begin to move forward in a healthy way.

Why am I here…..

      I’m here to try something new, to let my guard down and be more authentically myself. I will be sharing my personal truths and experiences, the good and bad. Writing past my natural vulnerabilities and insecurities to bring out my raw emotions and feelings. I hope to share about my life, my personal journeys, and the stories that I have been storing away from both my past and present. I will be honest about my fears and imperfections, while remaining true to myself. I’m inviting you into my world.